My Special Friend

My step is a little lighter,
My burdens feel less too.
I find life a little brighter,
Because I found a friend in you.

You've become such an important part
Of each and every day.
I treasure all the little things,
We've shared along the way.

I feel I can confide in you,
I hope you feel the same.
It's nice to know the person now
Instead of just the name.

Your compassion, your kindness,
your humor without end,
Make me proud and very happy
To call you my Special Friend.

With Love always

"This is not my Poem,I happen to like it but am unaware of the Poet to give the right credits"

Here I finally have gathered the courage to write about my new BEST friend in the city.
I know it freaking sounds like the article from Wake Up Sid but now i feel closer to this movie.
WHY?
Coz maybe even I have found that someone "who you always wanna keep with you".
Yeah I know I am making it sound as if he was a precious gem or a lucky charm or something and not human but that is as true as it can get.
I treat him more then human....he feels like a part of my soul now.

He is a young boy of 24 but he has grown beyond his years...he thinks in a different way and he sees things differently...as my friend puts it "he thinks beyond life".

He has helped me in my darkest days when I was tired of my office and wanted to run away but had no where to go as I was even more scared of going back home.

When I could not vent myself out anywhere I found this guy who use to work with me for 2 years and I never noticed him.
We chatted for a while on Facebook and suddenly I found myself telling him everything I was going through.
He was all ears to my toxic thoughts that day. I don’t know why he was there that day and why I told him everything when I barely knew him.
It was difficult to understand for a person like me who is scared of sharing her thoughts and choices.
I told him that I was not sure if my talks were at all interesting to him and that he can say no if he did not want to listen.
What he said in answer to this was surprising. He said he admired me from my days in my old office.
I could not believe it as I never believed that I had the charm that a boy would even look at me.
He told me about how he and my best friend would discuss me for hours and how he would stare at me from his workstation.
How my friends would bully him about exposing his interest in me.

I could not believe that for once but this was enough to make me feel a little better. It was like a deep ego boost!!
I pondered over it for 2 days and found myself cliff diving into a stream of different emotions about him. I liked him too....

Once I realized this I had to tell him this [:D]. I know it sounds freaking crazy but i told him.
May be this was just a sudden rush that I could not control or the book i was reading inspired me to do so.
I am unable to figure this out till date. I dunno what happened that day.....
And then I screwed my head for the next 2 days thinking why I had to tell him.
I tried not to think of him or talk to him but the guilt of expressing was killing me....

But then I called him up. This was the first time I was talking to him over phone.
I wanted to tell him that it was not a feeling that he might be thinking it was.
I was just happy that someone admired me.
He said he knew that already, that I don’t have to explain anything, that he will never take it otherwise.
He said he just wanted us to be friends, though he wanted to be much more :)

Since that day I have found a new bliss in life.
I have found that one friend who is trying to make this otherwise boring city interesting for me. I know I would cherish this time all my life.
He would do anything and everything to please me and make me feel special. But that is not all.
He is helping me grow as well, as a human (in my spirit). I have started believing myself again.
I m falling in love with my family all over again. Boy..he has got some influence on me.
I dunno since when I had stopped noticing myself but now I smile when I look in the mirror.
I try to find myself in it and I know with his help I will be able to find myself again.

He is that one guy who can change the energy and emotion around me. He is a writer and can play well with the words.
I talk to him almost everyday and in last 1 month we have shared as much as I could ever think of sharing in my entire life.
He is adorable and has solution to all my problems.
He is teaching me how my family is more important then anything else.
He helped me realize that people are always more important then work
and if you spend 1/4 of the time you spend on work with people around you it will yield happiness much more then the money earned by the days hard work.
I have started enjoying my office again. Why?
Coz there is a shift in my attitude now. Everyday I go to office not thinking how much would I finish today but thinking how many more people I would meet today.
He asks me to connect with the friends I had lost touch with due to work and spend time to revive our friendship.

I dunno why I listen to him and I dunno how but everything he suggests helps me feel happier every day.
He loves me as much as one can.

Hi! This is the first time ever that I am writing something.
It was difficult to find a subject to write on as my world is very small.
3 years in the corporate sector and I think I am loosing touch with the world. So I thought I will write about myself.

I am about average looking girl who was always sure that there is nothing in her which is likable so she tried to be good natured all the time. I knew that my life will never be easy and thinking about that I studied hard. when I got to work, it was harder. I was somehow sure that things will never be easy for me. I will always have to work hard to get them and I did.

I got the reward too. First time I saw appreciation in peoples eyes I was over joyed.
Now this made me feel that my hard work is what is appreciated so... I worked harder.
I worked all the time and it became a obsession. A passion so dear that I forgot everything around me.
Working nonstop for 48 hours was no big deal. I was getting a incomparable pleasure out of work.
I would work till my body was torn in pain and hunger. I forgot everything around me like family, friends and even myself.
Work was the excuse to ignore them all. Not talking to my parents for weeks was normal.

I burned my personal life with my own hands.
My mind was suffering, my body was yelling for help and i made it harder for them to survive.
I made everything so hard because I thought it was hard.
In the end I collapsed but even that did not teach me a lesson.

As soon as I was able to walk again I chose to work even harder and took a job both physically and mentally challenging my limits this time.
Worked even harder to make a place somewhere I did not belong.
I gave up the remainders of my personal life like taking offs on weekends to fit into place for this place.
It was like fighting alone with too many odd things, my own fear that I was not good enough, the hesitation in everyones eyes when they looked at me and the thoughest
was to fight back the urge to go back home to my dieing grand parents.

Now I realize that whatever I have been doing all this time was just to prove to others that I was good enough.
That I was be successful and had money. I did not do anything to please myself.

When in college I had written 10 points about what I wanted to do most in my life, sort of my personal Bucket list.
I have promised myself that I would complete my Bucket list now.

It starts with this article today. My first step towards writing something worth reading, which was the first pointer.